Fun at Parties

I wanna talk
But I don't wanna bum you out
Wanna have a good time
But the hard times keep coming around
I just fall to pieces for a million reasons
Just about every day
I can't smile and say it's okay

So I'm not gonna be fun at parties for a while, for a while
I'm not gonna be where I started for a while, for a while
All I wanna do is dance and be carefree but I just can't
I wanna be but I'm not gonna be fun at parties

Call someone else
I can't put that book back on the shelf
Theyll ask me how I'm doing
And their whole night will be ruined
'Cause I'm a dumpster fire, I'm a public crier
Can't keep my shit together
Who cares? So what, what so ever
Whatever

I'm not gonna be fun at parties for a while, for a while
I'm not gonna be where I started for a while, for a while
All I wanna do is dance and be carefree but I just can't
I wanna be but I'm not gonna be fun at parties

I was the life of it
A lifetime ago now
I was the life of it
Then life hit and knocked me down

I'm not gonna be fun at parties for a while, for a while
I'm not gonna be where I started for a while, for a while
All I wanna do is dance and be carefree but I just can't
I wanna be but I'm not gonna be fun at parties
Fun at parties