Astray (feat. Viktoria Liv)

I don't know what I'm doing
Getting tired of pursuing
Why the rush if I'm only
Ever inching close
When I want it most

Waking up disillusioned
Find my life in a ruin
Everything is new and
Kinda still the same
I'm the one to blame, ooh yeah

Grew up dreaming of the hills
Now I'm out here popping pills
And I wonder why it feels like
I am not okay
Is it all too late

Seems I'm always up and down
Purple sky, I'm in the clouds
Man, I'm all out of control now
Since I left my town
For a fancy house

I'm astray
Watch my old dreams shatter
Lost my way
Nothing left that matters anyway
Gotta choose your battles
Yet in vain
I'm astray

Can't accept the way it is
I would rather reminisce
Yeah, I got someone to kiss
But I'm stuck here at the start
With an empty heart

And I hate being ungracious
It's just that I have lost my basis
Can't seem to be prosperous
Not with what I got
I still want a lot
I'm astray
Watch my old dreams shatter
Lost my way
Nothing left that matters anyway
Gotta choose your battles
Yet in vain
I'm astray

No more howling at the moon
Still asleep, it's after noon
Know I'm safe in my cocoon so
I just close the blinds
Ain't no use in trying
(ain't no use in trying)

And I think I used to cry
Now I deal with it in quiet
And by golly, have I tried, can't
Make it out alone
Into the great unknown
I can't let it go, I can't let it go, I can't let it go

Watch my old dreams shatter
Lost my way
Nothing left that matters anyway
Gotta choose your battles
Yet in vain
I'm astray