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I Wish I Knew by Joyner Lucas album cover

I Wish I Knew

by Joyner Lucas

Lyrics
Nephew, it's your uncle Snoop Dogg
I need you to show these mother****ers how it's done, loco
Show these bitch **** what this ADHD 2 shit is all about
You understand me?
Show these mother****ers, Joyner
What you playin' for?
Let's go

Ain't no medicine could save me, ****
I'm too far gone, my brain too ****ed
I'm comin' like, woah
No turnin' back, gotta get to where I'm goin'
My ADHD keep jumpin' like, woah
Shit that I lived, they'll never understand
You could never be me, we ain't nothin' alike, woah
Came a long way from the bottomless pit
Now look at me, bitch, I'm stuntin' like, woah
Got a lil' bitch, ****, sidewalk
I'd probably go to jail 'fore I ever be a coward
I'd probably be dead 'fore I ever get flowers
I might take that 'fore I ever be honored
And try to be somethin' that the industry proud of
But **** wasn't givin' me nada
Another blick on me if you ever need drama
No vest on me like I never seen karma
Woah
The way I was raised, I knew I'd forever be a problem
Never got the love that I needed at home
I was misunderstood, shit turned me to a monster (Yeah)
Dad always lettin' me down
But my step-pops raised me and showed me I never need to bother (Ayy)
Now a **** rich, so it'll be a cold day in Hell 'fore this bitch **** ever get a dollar (Wow)
And I ain't got love for nobody give a **** about me
I'm a self-made ****, you ain't nothin' without me
Ain't too many mother****ers I trust around me
I done been through the storm, ain't nothin' I ain't seen
Lot of **** thought I'd give up, but not me
Told a ****, "You swing, one duck and I weave"
When my homies drink with a cup of Ali
And my bitch gotta ride 'til the wheels fall off
I **** a bad bitch 'til her heels fall off
You a dog, I'll get your whole tail sawed off
And your head chopped off, I'm a real lost cause
I'm real ****ed up, I'm still caught off
Ain't no pellet gun, this a real sawed-off
****in' wait for a **** tryna pop somethin' off
Hit a **** in the back, that's a real raw dog
Like, pause
**** still showin' off
Too much time on your hands 'til your hands blowin' off
I got money in the bank, got deals goin' off
I could sell my catalog, but I'm still holdin' off
Got crackers pullin' on me and they still holdin' on
Lot of **** did me dirty and they still wanna bond
Give my hand to a **** and he still want a arm
Wanna write diss tracks, but he still want a song
What the ****?

Look, I ain't ever sleepin', relievin' the pressure (Joyner)
Came from the bottom where we can see a homicide like every week, keep the heat up under the dresser
Thinkin' one day I'ma see better, hate the poverty, the fact I'll never settle
When I grow up, then I'm hopin' I'm never seen in a stretcher
Mama workin' nine-to-five, she was tryna keep it together
If I ever make it, I want a chance to make a difference
Forget it and take all the problems that we were livin' in
And then throw it all the way, so we never live in this shit again
Then maybe then **** would never tell me I need the Ritalin
Or medicine or anything that will make me upset again
Or put me in school with the troublemakers and trippin'
Always thought shit again, tryna bully me 'cause I'm different
And my ADHD got 'em thinkin' that I was livin' in my head again

Shit
Ooh-wee, you dig?
You don't have to pretend, baby
I know it gets hard looking around, you start to think
Maybe this isn't what I wanted
But you have to keep going
Keep moving on and don't you ever look back
Don't you ever look back