You've Lost A Lot of Blood

I killed you off with two hands and I meant it
I killed in my memories
You died on the plank, I held you down so
Then I buried you out on the wound
What was I thinking?
Your shadow is glued on all my ceilings
****ed up my hands throwing knives at a ghost
Don't know how it happened, but it did
"You lost a lot of blood, " the doctor said
Is this who I am now?
I take care of myself, I cast a spell in my bedroom
I asked the moon to hurt you over and over again
I took care of myself, I never needed nobody
Yeah, I fell asleep with the candle burning on accident
Aren't you sorry? Aren't you sick?
I prayed for death with a stuffed dog on my bed
Tried to bring it up once
Swore I'd never try again
Salt-stained pillow
Twenty years later, I can't forgive
I can't forgive
(I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't)
I can't forgive
(If it happened, I know that I did)
I can't, I can't
I can't forgive you
I can't forgive you, I can't
I can't forgive you, I won't
Any chance I get
I've got reasons for the way that I am
Tiny sword, tiny hands, tiny bed
"You lost a lot of blood, " they all said
Tiny sword, tiny hands, tiny bed