Suffocated

In the beginning it was worth this
Do the worst, feel complete
Passing standards others meet
Now perfect endings make you anxious
A heavy head, a cold sweat
Leaving nothing here, nothing to regret
Why am I still suffocated
I'm constantly devastated just to stay alive
I miss the old days that we murdered
They're so far gone, out of reach
Watch 'em fade with summer's heat
Without a break from this distraction
I need a change, a different scene
A new approach to coming clean
Still searching for a back door out of here
Reassured that my friends will reappear
Why am I still suffocating
Just hold your breathe deep and I'll keep waiting