Mono No Aware

I wrote this melody in my studio
So I could play the tune just for you
And I’m excited but devastated
Cause just existing leaves me tired and bruised
I don’t know what life is, don’t know what art is for
But I can understand singing the blues
Cause mellow music makes me feel better
It changes everything except my mood
When I was sixteen I was so cynical
I wasn’t lyrical because it was lame
I was restricted but overrated
And now I’m nervous that it’s still the same
If I am insecure it’s because I’m sure
I’ve lost my chance to win this lame game
But I’ll continue without the ingénue, ie the patriarchy in my brain
I watch the squirrels outside my window
They seem to understand what I never could
They sleep together outside in any weather
And spend their days playing and looking for food
Are they okay now in mid-winter
Do some of them not make it through
I like my comforts and my shower
But they might separate me from the truth
There are beings who live inside of me
I should probably give them names
Dennis is the dog who never works
He’s really, really badly behaved
Leslie is my genius, when I ignore her she slips away
Sandy is my mother, she shines her love in my soul every day
Mono no aware