Erasing

Who would know where to go when you dig this deep
Paint the dirt all in gold make it feel less cheap
And I try so hard to wash you off again
But there's too much of you left on my hands

So I
Set your pictures on fire so I don't have to remember
All the ways I bent to your pressure

I let you draw the lines
Change what you didn't like
Thought you could make me better
So you tried

I hardly recognize
When I see myself sometimes
I'm hating what you made me
Now I'm stuck here erasing

Crawling back to the place where I used to be
Chase the ghost of myself till I feel complete
You stuck to me like tattoos on my skin
Like the memories of everything you did

So I curse your name to numb the pain
Now I finally see it
You're everything that I never needed

I let you draw the lines
Change what you didn't like
Thought you could make me better
So you tried

I hardly recognize
When I see myself sometimes
I'm hating what you made me
Now I'm stuck here erasing

Should have never let you get so close
Now there's no room left to breathe
Gave me your poison and I drank it up
Now I'm just starting to see that
I gave you what you wanted and all you did was let me down

I let you draw the lines
Change what you didn't like
Thought you could make me better
So you tried

I hardly recognize
When I see myself sometimes
I'm hating what you made me
Now I'm stuck here erasing
Now I'm stuck here erasing
Now I'm stuck here erasing