ONE LAST TIME

Waking up on the floor with no one else in the room
I never felt like this before
I just hope I'm leaving soon
And if tomorrow I don't wake up, just know I really tried
To make the best of your forgiveness
Tell me one last time
How I never tried
Was so close to breaking through last time
I thought that I'd be sheltered by nothingness
By the lack of consciousness
But I lay here awake
Too afraid to dream
'Cause if I might have to face myself
I'll buckle at my knees
Tell me one last time
How I never tried

I've seen the light
But never felt this close
Pushed my pain aside
'Cause I could never give it to those
'Cause I never see the point in sharing defeat
Displaying my debts to the world
I just live in repeat, vacant and desperate
Tell me one last time
How I never tried
And if tomorrow I don't wake up
Just know I really tried to make the best of your forgiveness
And tell my brother he'll be fine